Trust: Why is it So Hard?

Sometimes trusting is the hardest thing ever to do. Ever since I've been home for the summer, I've been trying to really get my priorities straight, with God as the most important thing in my life. And it seems like just about every time I have been reading in my Bible, I have come across His promises that He will never leave us or forsake us. Seriously though, I will read in the Psalms and come across a verse that talks about how God is always there and will never leave us. And about every time that I find it, I underline it and make sure to write in that it's God's promise to us. Because when we know that He's always going to be there, then all we need to do it trust in Him. That is something He's been trying to teach me over the past month since I've been home. I need to just trust Him and let go. But it's so hard. I don't know why. I guess it's because I want to have control of every situation. I seem to feel so much better that way. When I have control, I seem to think I know what all is going on and I don't need to worry. But I really can't control anything and it just leaves me being even more anxious. I talked to Jennie tonight and she has struggled with the same stuff. She made a good statement and is so right: "It's bondage." But the freedom that comes from letting go of it is incredible because seriously, all we have to do is trust. So that's what I'm trying to work on right now. I just need to trust Jesus. His way is best. He always wants what's best for me and for everyone else. So I guess the question is why not trust Him? I just ask that you please keep me in your prayers right now. I'm struggling so much and just need God's direction in my life.

And by the way, a really good movie to watch is Diary of a Mad Black Woman (by Tyler Perry). It is incredible and I highly recommend it. I watched it for the 3rd time tonight and would really like to watch it again but I have to work in the morning. Maybe I'll watch it again tomorrow. It's just amazing. Incredible themes and story line! Okay, goodnight all! =)

"Praise be to the Lord, for he has heard my cry for mercy. The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to him in song. " -Psalm 28:6-7