Holy Spirit Rain Down!

"Lord Jesus, I am thirsty for the fullness of Your Holy Spirit. I present my body to You as a temple, and my members as instruments of righteousness, especially my tongue, the member I cannot tame. Fill me, I pray, and let Your Holy Spirit flow through my lips in rivers of praise and worship!" -In Jesus Name, AMEN!

Wow, God is GREAT! Things have been tough for me for the past couple of weeks, but God is working in my life. James and I are taking a break from our relationship. We both have so much to learn and so much for God to teach us both. We both just had a peace about it and feel like this is what the Lord wants us to do. So we are taking time apart. I don't know if it's God's will to be back together. I do hope we will be because he is my best friend and I love him and care for him very much, but I also want God's best for my life and for his. The best place for us to be is in the center of God's will and His plan for our lives. And if we're not in that, then we need to move to where God's at. However, that's not the easiest thing (even though it's the best). And as you can see from my previous post, God has been teaching me over and over again about trust. It's so hard, but so amazing when we finally do it.

Right now, I know I am where God wants me to be. He is refining me, shaping me, drawing me to Himself. And oh how sweet it is! I had been struggling a lot and the only place that seemed to bring comfort was in God's Word and in His presence. I really have just been trying to focus my time in on Him and seek His face. I want to come back to my first love, which is Jesus. I want to fall madly in love with Him so that He is all I need. It's been incredible to see how He really truly has been there and carried me every step of the way.

My pastor's been talking a lot about being baptized in the Holy Spirit and I just went up because I wanted it. I wanted more of Jesus and more of Him to fill and overflow my life. So I went and God just touched my heart. I went up for prayer at church and He just showed up! I am learning just to release and believe in faith. And it's incredible!! God's power flowing through me. His Holy Spirit over my life! I want Him to lead me where I'm to go and show me where He's working. I want more of it and more of God! It's like I'm in a whole new ball game, a deeper level with God. I have been learning so much and been realizing how important that personal time with the Lord really is. It's in the secret place with God where intimacy with Him comes. He meets us where we're at, loves us, comforts us, speaks to us. And He's always there! It's like this quote I found the other day, "God knows the rhythm of my spirit and knows my heart's thoughts. He is as close as breathing." -author unknown. Wow, isn't that incredible?!?! He is right there all the time, that close to us!! I really wish I could express to you in full on this blog what God is doing in my life but I can't. I just hope what little I can express will show you and encourage you of God's goodness and faithfulness. His promises really are true. It's not easy though, believe me. I still have very difficult times and ask why things have happened the way they have. I know I will probably continue to struggle but my goal is to continually keep my eyes on Jesus (that's something James always encouraged me to do while he was on the mission field). When my eyes are on Him, all is well and good because I am trusting Him. He is in control in the present and with the future! Praise God!!

Psalm 63:1-5
"O God, you are my God, earnestly I seek you; my soul thirsts for you, my body longs for you, in a dry and weary land where there is no water. I have seen you in the sanctuary and beheld your power and your glory. Because your love is better than life, my lips will glorify you. I will praise you as long as I live, and in your name I will lift up my hands. My soul will be satisfied as with the richest of foods; with singing lips my mouth will praise you."